A recent suicide from my hometown got me thinking about suicide as a whole, and my experience being on that ledge. I narrowed down what I feel about suicide in to the concept that it takes strength to surrender. Strength is derived from your ability to hold yourself in both darkness and light. This allows you to choose the hard decision that may not feel good now (dark), but will set you up for success later (light). To surrender is to throw your hands up to the sky and listen to that quiet voice that prompts you to do good (God). God will provide you the path, but you have to surrender your Earthly desires to follow it, but you'll only be able to surrender if you're strong enough to.

Get ahead faster by being strong enough to hold steady through the negative emotions of a contraction phase. Maintain and flatline until the storm rolls through, and feel that burst of energy from the newfound expansion phase and hit the ground on fuckin fire.

How to start a recovery journey or a life rebuild. No funky gimmicky sayings or cliche quotes. The spark is a small sacrifice, the fuel is building momentum, and the flame is total awareness of body, mind, and spirit.

Talking taking accountability for your entire life to grasp the power and control that comes with personal responsibility. This leads to you becoming present enough to find that "heart voice" or "voice of God" in the back of your mind that leads you through failure and on to your true path.

How building your tolerance to discomfort through physical fitness and meditation provides you with the strength to break negative thought patterns and become the creator of your life.

First episode ever! This one is definitely no frills, a bit rough around the edges, and jumps around a little (I will get better as I record more).

It's an off-the-cuff retelling of my backstory: from childhood sexual abuse, to teenage severe alcoholism, to suicide, and then how two girls from Los Angeles "accidentally" saved my life. Raw, personal, and deep, but I hope you people pull some gems from it or get inspired somehow. Cheers!