I built a life that looked good—on paper, at least. But behind the image was someone who had vanished from her own story. In this episode, I talk about what it means to stop disappearing, start choosing yourself, and reclaim the parts of you that were never meant to be sacrificed.

We’re not talking about narcissism or main character syndrome. We’re talking about presence. About identity. About the quiet ache of trying to earn love when you were already made with it.

From passport photos to Little Mermaid metaphors to a surprise encounter outside my old Chicago apartment—this one’s for anyone trying to come home to themselves again.

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Host: Judith Sallador

Producer: Michael Gonzales

Oldest Child Syndrome? Yeah… we’ve got it. Bad.

In this episode, I’m joined by my longtime friend and fellow eldest sibling Michael as we spiral (with structure) through the highs, lows, and unspoken job description of being the oldest child. We talk birth order bias, pressure to perform, gender dynamics, and why being “the responsible one” is wildly overrated.

There’s sibling shade, emotional realism, a kombucha story gone sideways, and maybe a few identity crises along the way.

If you grew up keeping the peace, managing the group chat, or crying in silence while solving everyone else’s problems — this one’s for you.

Tap in. Your inner oldest child will thank you.

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Host: Judith Sallador

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What if you stopped performing and just lived? A messy,honest start to a podcast about becoming—without having it all figured out.