In this journal entry, I take you inside my real-time processing as I work through launching The Mental Rewire. I wrestle with the tension between forcing something forward versus allowing it to unfold through deep internal work. I open up about my fears, doubts, and excitement around niching down into work that feels deeply aligned with who I am — helping people get unstuck through mental rewiring and jumpstarting their spark. If you're someone who's ever wrestled with launching something that feels personal, or struggled with whether you're ready enough, I think you'll relate to this one.

In this deeply personal hike with my brother Devin, we explore the paradoxes of progress, acceptance, and pace. We talk about letting go of external pressures, allowing yourself and others to move at your own rhythm, and finding peace in both the striving and the stillness. From faith to food, from caffeine to connection — this is a conversation about learning to feel it, not force it. One step at a time.

In this raw and wandering journal entry, I process the tension between where I am and where I feel called to go. As I hike through the Wellsville mountains, I wrestle with the fear of choosing a path that feels like a step backwards financially, while knowing deep down that my soul is pulling me toward something different. I talk about fragile belief, the temptation to force things too early, and my desire to help people create meaningful change — not for scale or status, but for real transformation. This is me working through my own faith to stay aligned with my unique path.

In this deeply personal episode, I take you with me on my first Utah hike as I process the layers of trauma and stress we've experienced through multiple moves, business challenges, financial strain, and personal setbacks. I share raw stories of how past decisions, risks, and painful events shaped me and my family — and how that old numbness robbed me of presence for years. This hike serves as a reset, helping me break the cycle, ground myself, and commit to fully appreciating the chapter we're in now. I hope my vulnerability gives you permission to reflect on your own cycles, and encourages you to stay present even through uncertainty.

In this bonus entry, I record a roleplay that’s been on my mind for Bamboo Pest Control. It’s a simple, educational approach to sales — one that focuses on connecting with the customer, teaching them about their specific pest issues, and showing how the service solves real problems. This isn’t just about closing a sale; it’s about building trust and creating an experience that feels personal and valuable.

In this combined entry, I start to unpack the idea that's been building quietly inside me — the Jumpstarter. Through conversations, memories, and real-time reflections, I explore how my past experiences, unique abilities, and moments of personal growth may connect into something much bigger: helping others break through when they're stuck. From roleplays to pricing thoughts, from personal stories to realizations on my mission years ago, this is a raw look at the early formation of what might become my next calling.

In this first entry of the Jumpstart series, I reflect during a 24-hour solo U-Haul drive as we move across the country. I share some of the unexpected moments that led up to this transition, the release of built-up stress through a simple late-night dance session, and early sparks of a new idea that’s been forming inside me — a way to help others find clarity, calm, and momentum in their lives when they feel stuck. This was the beginning of what would eventually evolve into the Jumpstarter concept.

In this episode, I share a recent experience with a mushroom-inspired drink that led me into a mental loop—trying to force answers about the future into the present. What started as an intention to connect and gain clarity turned into a lesson about control, surrender, and the anxiety that comes when we try to guide our soul instead of letting it guide us. This one’s messy, reflective, and honest.